Pain!!

Lisbeth Salander is my idol.

Tried to be friends with my ex, mut it turned into a catastrophe once more, she was so evil to me, that I'll never wanna speak to her again. She's a fucking bitch. For a statement I will shave some of my hair off today! I will not be drowned by her fucking assholeness! This was the last time that I put up with her shit!

Fu**ing self-esteem

Today I feel horrible. I feel that I'm a nobody and I get nothing done. I can't handle school stuff, I'm lazy. I live in a horrible place. It's cold and dark and I'm ugly and nobody likes me. Life is too difficult for me. I hate people, they hate me.

I hate winter, I hate myself.

Thinner

Tonight I've been browsing through some Thinspiration websites and I've read all kinds of hints on how you can loose weight. One hint was "Get yout tongue, lip etc, pierced so you can't eat", that made me think up one new hint: Drink something very hot so that your tongue will burn, it will prevent you from eacting any hot foods and drinks for a while because of the pain.

About Eniko. I love her in that photoshoot, she's hot and fashionable at the same time.

I found a new model that I adore. Alyssa Sutherland. Or maybe it's mainly some sort of a lust that I'm feeling towards her at the moment. More about her and everything else a bit later.

I'm blond

My fabulous life. I dyed my hair blond a while ago because I wanted to look different so that a certain someone (a psychopath) wouldn't regognise me so easily. Once again, that psycho is something that I don't want to talk about in this blog, it's been a horrible experience, but you know what life is like, you can't always succeed. At the moment I don't have anyone special and that's bugging me a great deal. Usually I'm pretty depressed at this time of the year, because it's so dark and cold, but this autumn I haven't really felt any horrible feelings until now. Right now I wish that I'd meet new people, not just any people, but girls, some nice, wise and honest girls who'd not turn out to be completely wackos (I've had them enough lately). While I'm waiting for someone new to show up, I could definitely use a little nap with Daria in some field.....

Right now!

I'm just hating some of my so called friends right now... They're just so full of shit! We met last night, there were about 7 of us, I can't remember if anyone asked how am I doing.. they're all straight and i'm bi, almost a lesbian even, I felt like I have nothing in common with them. I felt like an outsider. Dunno. Crap.

chAOs

I'm a mess. I miss O painfully much. Or not her, but some little stuff. I wish I had the energy to write more, there's so much happening all the time.

I love Daria Werbowy

watch the video, I adore her, she's my favourite model.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BL1m0W82ft8&feature=related

I have to put some Paramore pictures here, 'cause Hayley's hair is so awesome, I want a hair like that!